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May 09, 2008 8:15 AM  (go back to main view)
holy crap!

I saw a guy die today.


So, I'm wlaking to the bus stop to go home from my computer course place only a mere hour ago, when..

BAM!

I look behind me i see a motorcycle fly right past me only inches from hitting me, and a man hitting his head on the sidewalk.

I ran across the street to help him but as I got closer, I knew he was dead already.

Cause of death.. he broke his neck.

I had to wait for the police to arrive to give a stetement and then the ambulance arrived and wanted to treat me for shock, but i was surprisingly quite calm about it. Maybe it's becaus eive seen someone die before and it's not that big a deal anymore? how can it not be a big deal though. this guy was dead, right next to me!

I was of course, pretty scared and i was under a little bit of shock, but i was surprisingly less bothered by the whole thing than i would have expected to be.

am i heartless? or is it just that i took it in a diferent way to most people?

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Posted by trisha on June 27, 2008 2:32 PM
that's terrible my sympathy's for the family, people deal with things differently I would have probably did the same thing, while others would have freaked out and been in shoke, its probably a good thing to be calm in situations like that it lets you see the whole picture and make good fast decisions, (personally I think its an old survival trait) but being calm doesn't make you heartless. :D
Posted by ♥SilentSwe... on May 14, 2008 12:48 AM
I think it's normal not to have been shocked. Because some people feel that there are worser things that they should be focus on, such as what is going on in their own personal live,rather than focusing on a stranger's death.
Posted by Joanie Pri... on May 13, 2008 8:44 PM
Wow. That is terrible. I think I would've been shocked, but different people recover better than others. It's just your way of dealing.
Posted by karlaynzon on May 13, 2008 2:13 PM
Omg. that's just terrible.
good thing you were calm.
im sure if i was in your position i would be so scared seeing a dead man next to me and would be panicking already! xP hehe
Posted by Thorsten O... on May 13, 2008 8:57 AM
Tried something very similar and with same reaction, though I was told sometimes the chock comes some hours later. It didn't and I think it's a matter of seeing the thing. When you see it, see it all and see it as it is, that is what it is and there's no maybe, speculation, regret or anything to it. It just is.
What freaked me more out was that I was the only one who could and would help while others were just looking like it was a play or something on television. So good on you hat you ran across at once.
Posted by Andrea Apo... on May 13, 2008 9:11 AM
well... of course id run across at once. if theres was a chance i could have helped this man, i would have done everything i could to make sure he would live.
its simply being human i guess
Posted by Clare Barr... on May 12, 2008 2:04 PM
Pretty cool that you can deal with it to be fair, some people that would be the end of their mental health. I reckon the media desensitizes us all anyway, reguardless of life experience.
Posted by Andrea Apo... on May 12, 2008 4:28 PM
well there was some media, they wanted to ask questions i just told them to go away and the police told them to leave me alone. they got me shouting at a camera man to leave. but i didnt sign a elease form, and the police told me that i can take them to court if they release anything with me in it. so yeah, the media is pretty brutal.
Posted by Scott Alan on May 09, 2008 5:48 PM
You're not heartless. I'm not one to freak out in situations like that, usually I'm the one trying to run to the rescue and it sounds like you do the same.
Posted by Mathieu Ka... on May 09, 2008 5:03 PM
u rn't heartless u just rn't disturbed by death
Posted by David Dayb... on May 09, 2008 2:26 PM
sad day!

oh shit bit!

i probly woulda done the same
Posted by Tallulah on May 09, 2008 12:25 PM
First of all - SO glad that you are OK!
Did the driver get caught/arrested? I hope they do!!!

Secondly - no, you are not heartless. I am 99.9% sure that I would have the same reactions in your situation.

I took emt courses when I was 22 & I saw a bunch of bad stuff while doing my hospital/ambulance hours - so I am pretty distanced from thing of this nature though.

xo - Tally
Posted by Andrea Apo... on May 09, 2008 12:55 PM
i used to hang out with drug addicts and some pretty messed up people when i was younger, i've seen some pretty nasty shit, unfortunately.
my own fault for being so stupid and hanging out with them.
Posted by Plastic Ph... on May 09, 2008 12:07 PM
thats pretty intense. and that doesn't make you heartless everyone deals with emotions differently im sure its bugging you even more then you think. reguardless im happy your okay! and I hope he RIP :(
Posted by AUDREY ALL... on May 09, 2008 11:48 AM
wow thats pretty scary to even picture. good thing youre okay though
Posted by Veronika l... on May 09, 2008 9:15 AM
OMG!What a tragedy:(

I hope that you are o.k.
If i was at your place i will be shocked...
Posted by Emmi The G... on May 09, 2008 8:54 AM
Oh God! Yeah, I think I would've been pretty shocked, but probably you get over that kind of thing pretty quickly if you don't know the guy. I mean, what's changed in your life? It's not like anything will be missing, right?
So I don't think that makes you heartless ;D
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Gender: Male
High School: stella maris college
College: hmm still working on it
Maiden Name: im a guy...
Tagline: Andrea, Apocalypse, Life, Poet, Blog,
Favorite Bands: from first to last the used boys like girls
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Favorite Artists: anyone whos art is a reflection of his/her true self, and the actual poets who read their work on the streets. i like to sit next to them and catch some tips from them.
Heroes: not too sure. I've never really looked up to anyone so i never bothered having a hero
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Occupation: I am.... unemployed :O!
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Jun 25, 2008 8:28 AM
thanx for the add!!! =)
Jun 21, 2008 7:35 PM
OH WHOOPS, ANDREA, THAT COMMENT FROM DOLLEDUPCOUTURE WAS FROM ME,ITS MY MERCHANDISE UBER ACCOUNT, I THOUGHT I WAS LOGGED ONTO MY SILENTSWEETIE ACCOUNT,THEN AFTER I SAW THAT THE COMMENT WAS POSTED AS FROM DOLLEDCOUTURE,I WAS LIKE WHOOPS!OK SO JUST LETTING YOU KNOW IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING WHO DOLLEDUPCOUTURE WAS LOL.
Jun 21, 2008 7:26 PM
Just stopping by to say hi again. You were like one of my best friends on Uber,I don't got that very many friends on Uber! Barely anyone talks to me on Uber except you! I hope everything's going well with you,I have no idea what happened to you,so lol I hope you're still alive =P
Jun 20, 2008 5:30 PM
stopping by to say hello & tell you that you are in my top 5 of favorite online people that I met through uber.

I really hope things are looking up for you. I know how it is to get so down.
If you are on myspace, please add me there - myspac.com/13Tallulah - if needed, my last name as in the system is 'C.'

♥ - Tally
Jun 18, 2008 10:01 AM
hey =]

just lettin u know i drop by.

-jOhn
Jun 14, 2008 3:15 AM
Aww I don't see you online as often anymore,where have you been?Internet down?
Jun 13, 2008 9:25 AM
i miss yew.....
Jun 13, 2008 3:04 AM
HELLO! Just dropping by, seeing what's up?
May 30, 2008 2:21 AM
just stopping by to say hello. I know you don't get on here much anymore, but this will be here waiting for you when you do.*wink*
I hope all is well for you!
xo
May 29, 2008 5:17 AM
Mister, are you alive?
May 22, 2008 9:45 AM
Hey! what's up? wow, you seem really busy....just "ignoring" Uber...xD hahaha i luv ya newayz! so how good are you at surfing right now?
May 21, 2008 7:15 PM
Aww I feel loved.<3 haha
It has been a while! We haven't chatted in forever. :(
So how is everything love?
May 21, 2008 3:59 PM
im super man!
just eating an apple
how are you??
May 21, 2008 10:12 AM
I'm pretty good, thanks. How are you? What's been keeping you so busy? Not so bad that you have 'been ignoring Uber' - it's good for you to do other things with your time *wink*.

My vacation was pretty good. Wish it could have been longer. I did a vide blog & a regular blog on the whole thing & uploaded some new photos.

Talk to you soon! xoxo
May 20, 2008 9:16 PM
hey what up!
May 20, 2008 10:45 AM
Just dropping by to say hello. ♥
May 19, 2008 4:51 PM
I dont know why
but I just don't get this
meh
I feel like a loser
haha
MC
May 17, 2008 5:03 PM
Hey, how are you doing ?
May 17, 2008 11:14 AM
how do you submit your blog to the ROS page?
May 17, 2008 5:44 AM
:)
May 15, 2008 11:08 AM
It's boarding time right now for my plane....send you kisses!
see you soon!
May 14, 2008 11:02 AM
AWW i havent talked to you in a while!!! whats up? how's the surfing? ILY! <3
May 14, 2008 5:23 AM
=] thankies <3
so what have youh been up 2??
ive had exams for the last 3 days so that kinda sucks
.xx
May 13, 2008 2:20 PM
I tried to reply to your comment on my page, but Uber poofed it away. Grrrrr
May 13, 2008 12:27 PM
new layout is lookin' good hun.
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