this blog isnt just a rant.. i want to do something to help out.. i really do.. i used to help as many people as i could before but its been so hectic with work i barely find the time to actually help people in person.. ive decided i could try to help people out online.. i know its not much.. but its all i have to offer right now.. im way too busy with work.. its 11pm right now and im still doin my work.. but anyways im not here to make excuses im here to help or try... look. ive been through it. i go through it every day, you might begin to think its not worth it anymore, lifes becoming a dark void.. something must be missing right? well its not you whos to blame. it never is.. its wrong right? that a little boy run to his father happy to see him come home from work... and he gets slapped across the face for showing his father some love.. it only gets worse. that same little boy will start growing up, he will do worse at school because he would be so scared of going home he wouldnt pay much attention to his lessons, his father will get even angrier when his grades get lowe, the slap urns into a punch. the boy grows up abit more, by this time school is just the few hous of safety untill he gets home. he starts drinking, doing drugs, anything to make the pain seem more distant and less painful. the punch turns into a beating. the boy starts getting scared that he might never make it out alive and is even more afraid of the pain he will go through till he is dead. i guess you know the next step... yeah.
well ive been there 5 times already and im only 17. im not saying this for sympathy. thats the last thing i want.
it doesnt have to be like that. we all want better for ourselves than that.. most poeple keep these things to themselves.. right now theres not much i can do. i cant tell you all to come lve with me.. if i could i would but its impossible.. but talking about it.. having a friend whos been through it and understands you. someone to help... someone who will listen, even if you dont want to hear anything.. sometimes being listend to can make you feel heaps better.. i plan on making this my life goal. helping kids and teens who are going through tough family times...

thats pretty much all i have to say right now.. if anyone wants to talk.. im here alot of the time. ill reply as soon as i possibly can... and if you think you cant talk about things yet.. im planning on sticking around. ill be here when your ready:)
i love you all
remember
hold on
we get one life
and we cant lose it before its our time to go
and we dont decide when it ends
no one here does.
it might be god
or whatever
i dont really beleive in god
but whatever